Destiny Star's Blog

Last night as I was stopping by the grocery store after going to a late mass, I saw the creepy guy from one of my last nights at work again. He was at my grocery store! This is really scaring me. I don’t know if he recognized me, since I was dressed for mass, not for work.

I don’t even know what’s going on I’ve been up all night with my pistol next to me, worried about what might happen next… I can’t bear the thought of being taken again, I just can’t. I feel like I’m losing my mind here.

I’m rocking myself, holding my rosary and praying for my safety as the night goes on. This guy just really trips all the wrong triggers with me. He was scary and creepy, and then he showed up in my neighborhood, just a few blocks from where I live. Where I live!

I can’t do this… I can’t live where I’m afraid that I’m being stalked constantly. I need to get out of this town. I need to get out of this life and into the new one that’s waiting for me. I can’t live on hold anymore.

I looked at my lease and it would cost me two thousand dollars to get out of my lease here and then about two thousand more to find a short-term place to rent near the Institute where I start school in January. I’m worried I’ll be taken and hurt again unless I make a break from my life here. If you can help me out with this, please, please help me. I need out of here.

The creepy guy from Monday night was back again on Tuesday night. I’ve got a really bad feeling about him. He’s about 5′9” with shaggy but not super-long brown hair. He’s in his mid-twenties, thin-ish, and just kinda sits in back near the bar drinking a couple of small drinks and watching everything that’s happening.

The way he acts reminds me of my stalker a bit when he finally found the club I work at, and that really sets my teeth on edge. I’m really just getting this feeling that he’s stalking someone, but I don’t know who. I’ve let the bouncers know about the vibe I’m getting off him, but they’re not going to just throw him out.

I’m getting scared, and if I didn’t need $30,000 by the end of December, plus my living expenses until then, I’d be out of this job in a heartbeat. I’d drop this and run, find another club in some other town to work at. I know God has put me on a path to this school, and that I’ll get there somehow. Right now though, I’m wondering if the road I’m taking is the right way to get there.

I’m going to spend a lot of time today praying about the directions to God’s next destination for me. Do I stay working at this club? Do I leave and work some menial job I’m barely qualified for until January when school starts? How do I get the tuition money together? Is this destination where God wants me to go? If not this design school, then where?

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