Destiny Star's Blog

Deadlines for school are looming closer and closer. As I’ve mentioned before, the design school I’m attending requires some pretty hefty computer equipment for its incoming freshmen, so that we only have to buy one computer for our five year course and can use the high-power programs we’ll need for our work.

Well, the deadline to certify that we’ve met the computing requirements is coming up fast and I still have no way to pay for the computer. So I’m going to ask my dear readers for help: I need $5,100 by the end of the week to be able to purchase the computer I need and have it assembled.

If you click the donate button on the left-hand side of the screen (or below) you can make a tax-deductible donation to the Destiny Scholarship Fund, which will help to send me to school, and then to send other former sex-workers who’ve found God to school to get us away from this life.

If you’d rather purchase a piece of equipment yourself and send it to them, they’ll get it passed on to me, and your donation will still be tax-deductible. E-mail me for their mailing address.

Why haven’t I stopped stripping? Why don’t I just quit? It’d be the best thing for me, probably. It’s really scary though, when I think about it. I’m spending a this time doing something I hate for the very reason I started it: Money.

Quite simply, I can’t afford to quit. I have $3,000 in tuition bills coming up and no way to pay them. On top of that , my rent runs about $300 a month with utilities and everything included on this crappy little place I live.

My car is paid off, though it’s not worth that much. I bought it for around $4000 and might be able to get 2000 if I were to sell it. On top of that, I’m going to have to buy about $5000 worth of computer equipment to be able to do my work when I get to school.

I’m going to be learning the most high end 3D computer design out there. For that I have to have a computer that will keep up with the programs I’ll have to use and no take months to render one of the scenes I’m going to be creating. It’s really cool stuff, but it takes a lot of power from the computer.

I have about $1600 left in savings after putting down my deposit to hold my place in the class starting in January. I have no idea how I’m going to make ends meet, or even if I will make them meet. I have a spot in their dorms lined up for free, but unless I can pay the tuition, I’m not sure how long they’ll let me stay.

I don’t know how much money the scholarship that’s been set up for me has in it right now, but it’s mostly coming from a very small church that meets in the pastor’s house because they don’t have enough people or enough money to rent, buy, or build a church building, so I don’t expect them to be contributing much. They’re hoping it will help me attract funds that the donation has official non-profit status through their church.

I want to trust that the Lord will provide me with the means to quit my job now and get ready for school starting in December, but no job out there I could get can pay me what I make now, and I still have no idea what I’m going to do to pay for school.

Yes, I’m worrying about money. Wouldn’t you be? I’ve got the best opportunity to change my life I’ve ever been offered sitting right in front of me, and I’m being asked for more money than I’ve ever had to get it. I’m also being told that I’ll never be able to work for the money I need and do well enough to stay in school.

So tell me Lord, what do I do? Do I quit the job that’s keeping me afloat until I can get where I need to go? Do I work this job until it’s time to go off to my school and my new life? Do I stay working where I am until I’m too old and worn out for anyone to want to see me? Do I quit this and give up on going to school, where it seems so clear You want me to go? I’m listening, Lord. Please tell me what to do…

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Hooray! My scholarship fund is set up through my friend’s church! Their congregation is putting some money in, and hopefully other people will soon be willing to donate or give grants. I want to thank God for putting these amazing people in my life, and thank this church for making it possible for all the people who want to help to do so.

They’re a small house church in Kansas taking me on as a project, and eventually others as well. They’ve set up the scholarship to be “for the purpose of funding the education of sex workers who have found Jesus Christ and wish to leave their time as sex workers behind them.”

So within a few days, I’ll have an address through the church where donations can be sent, but right now I’ve got a paypal account where donations can be made. This is amazingly exciting to me, as it’s unlikely I’ll get much financial aid through the school, as they disburse their funds at the beginning of the fall semester.

I applied for the Spring semester because admission was less competitive and because I’d already missed the deadline for the Fall semester, and I want out of this line of work. So, if you want to donate to the scholarship fund which will help me (and eventually others working in sex industries) out of my line of work and into school, click the paypal button at the end of this post or in the sidebar!

God bless my friend Eric and his flock for doing this to help me and others like me!

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A church run by an old friend of mine from high school has agreed to help me out! They’re setting up a scholarship fund that will let people who feel inclined to donate money to help me out and get a receipt allowing them to claim a tax deduction, which is incredible! I’m feeling so amazingly blessed!

They’re not sure how long it will take before they can have absolutely everything set up, since the fund needs its own bank account and some other issues, but he’s saying it should be within the week!

I’m very excited, as I’ve had a couple people ask how they can help. They say they can also take donations of the parts my computer guy is going to need to build my computer, since that’s going to be another $4,000 or so. As soon as I figure out how to post a link to the wishlist on a computer parts website he made for me, I’ll do that.

So, things are looking up, and it just goes to show that when you trust in the Lord, He will show the way!

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